give me your heart

It is morning and to think I am up written a blog is crazy. I was just thinking that? It is just a thought don't take is to serious or do. I have a wonderful 2 year old which often think in the lines of a 25yr old. Another blog coming soon about that. We share 2 things my concerns and his mom we will for ever share the 2 his mom is my greatest concern and she is his my heart will always ring true to his may I never hinder his heart by being harsh or disrespectful to his mom. Which is my bride which I choose to identify with me. To think that Gods son our savior screams the heart of God to us often holding dear the heart of his father often revealing the love for his bride it often bring fear and amazement to my heart to know that I have been given the same title and love position to reveal to my son the heart of his father that he will hold dear to his mother my bride as much as Christ clung to his bride over his mother it bring tear to my eye's to know that my son will one day have to cling to his bride over his mother and it will be taught by me and the heart I give him for his mother. O lover give me your heart that I may cling as you did and forever leave a lasting legacy that will break the hearts of others for their bride so that they will leave their hearts for their sons!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Who is seeking Who?

As the time seem to travel by as I search my heart to see the sin that so separate me from a Holy God. As i think of the event that transpired the other night as I watched my son weep, blood was pouring from his mouth after he was playing a Game with his father of seek as I walked in the door he wanted me to chase him so he took off running and fell and hit his mouth on the floor chipping his tooth. I wanted so much for that to me. He did not know minutes ahead of time he would be taking gulps of his own blood. I must admit I want my daddy to chase me I would perfer him to catch me before I fall. The bible tells us that we should seek God til he comes and rain down on us. As I think of the door that separates me and God it is often closed with Pride, Lust, Selfishiness, Littlewhite lies and no gratitude,unbelief,Anger,envy,Neglect of prayer,coldiness of the word,worldiness, lack of concern for the lost,hypocrisy.My son could never image the hurt that placed on me when I saw him on the ground crying and asking for his his papa who was to late because he never knew that his son was actually looking for him on the other side of the door before he fell. To night I was asked by my heart to actually open the door of my own heart and to return again as a son as a seeker of the father instead of waiting for the father to seek me.

Am I Lost

1:45am I was awake out of a dream with word picture of a person who was still at the start while the race had already started he wasn't even in the block he was behind them with his face looking down as though defeated. I woke-up wanting so desperately to get the meaning of the dream did I have to many ribs earlier was I over thinking the heart of God because his thoughts did not match mines. As I sat there feeling like the word picture I saw in the dream was actually me the person behind or not even in the block had been me. I wanted to scream out loud where am I but I was so excited that I was Dreaming about being Lost. That a God so huge would allow me to take a walk in his heart to know my own heart. Where am I? Or where are you? Are you Lost you may be between Job's, schools, husbands,wives Careers, Church's, hurts or just dreaming that the race have already started just remember he is praying for you that your faith may not fail. Later that week my step mom call me up she had just been dreaming about me and her heart was gripped with the ideal to cry out for me where are you? I don't know what you are going through but I got your back. The question comes to my mind am I Lost The scripture say those who cry-out to God shall be saved. After I have come to my self I know the way back Home. And after I return home I will strengthen my brothers,I will feed and watch the sheep. I am so amazed at how much God is praying for us that he cause others to pray as well may they get the prophets reward for praying for the prophet you are not lost God know where you are come to your self his arms are open with a ring and a robe and a party to you who thought you were lost. You have just been found cry out for other and give God his reward.

What does God want from me!!!

My name is Kelvin Kelly what does that mean to you? If I would have to guess from reading your mind... absolutely nothing. We have alot in common if we could sit down and ask each other questions they would be alot of what do we want, or what do we need, or what do we have. I was sitting down the other day and God impressed on me that we often communicate one sided our asking and our need , what do we have, or what do we want from a God who holds the world in the palm of his hand. Our very breath would cease if he remove his spirit from this earth. He left me with my asking and kiss me a word that said what about my needs? I would never think that God had a need by the way when I say God that is so broad I will make one thing clear I am talking about jesus please Tell me you have heard of him because he has heard of you, What would a wonderful seeker like him want from us or me you may ask? The answer is so simple he wants to talk and tell us what is in his heart, whats on his heart you may ask I can tell by the look on your face you are on the edge of your set??? I am telling you he is waiting for you to asks, he died for us to ask, He rose for all to ask. He live for all to ask his heart is so full of request and void of a reply he is waiting to reply. God what is on your heart we are listening I know we are full of request thats all we know to do. But this one time we will listen!!!!!!! Will you listen???