Who is seeking Who?

As the time seem to travel by as I search my heart to see the sin that so separate me from a Holy God. As i think of the event that transpired the other night as I watched my son weep, blood was pouring from his mouth after he was playing a Game with his father of seek as I walked in the door he wanted me to chase him so he took off running and fell and hit his mouth on the floor chipping his tooth. I wanted so much for that to me. He did not know minutes ahead of time he would be taking gulps of his own blood. I must admit I want my daddy to chase me I would perfer him to catch me before I fall. The bible tells us that we should seek God til he comes and rain down on us. As I think of the door that separates me and God it is often closed with Pride, Lust, Selfishiness, Littlewhite lies and no gratitude,unbelief,Anger,envy,Neglect of prayer,coldiness of the word,worldiness, lack of concern for the lost,hypocrisy.My son could never image the hurt that placed on me when I saw him on the ground crying and asking for his his papa who was to late because he never knew that his son was actually looking for him on the other side of the door before he fell. To night I was asked by my heart to actually open the door of my own heart and to return again as a son as a seeker of the father instead of waiting for the father to seek me.